And what I learned along the way

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  1. Some critical component is missing in their relationship and they are [subconsciously] trying to find a more compatible partner
  2. Their primary relationship is very secure with crucial needs met, and they have an ability and desire to give love to and connect with others, in addition to their primary partner.


And grieve the death of romantic love

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…and how I wanted to live my life

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Those who cannot change their minds cannot change anything.
– George Bernard Shaw


The biggest lesson from my open marriage

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“Your relationship with yourself sets the tone for every relationship you have.”

— Robert Holden


Sharing the things I’d been afraid to say helped us grow closer.

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Based on my observations of people in successful open partnerships

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  • Feeling safe to openly communicate about anything
  • Willingness to listen and put in effort to see the other…


Reconnecting with my inner child and searching for and the uphill struggle of fighting off abandonment fears

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Or how I found out my grandmother was polyamorous.

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“Why would you suffocate anyone you love with unnecessary restrictions?”


To feel safe, I have to choose to miss out on experiences with my partners.

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I have to hide this huge most loving part of me from most of the world, because seeing it as it is would make most of the world uncomfortable.


When your partner has power over your other relationships

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Redefining Love

Stories from my personal experience with polyamory and open marriage.

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